---

v e n i b u s: yo im thinking of doing a porno

v e n i b u s: im so fn hypersexual its annoying

v e n i b u s: sometimes i sit on the train and my dick just starts going hard

myowndeafmelody: i cant believe im readnig this..

v e n i b u s: i cant believe im typing this

---

my hair smells nice.

---

failed permit test.

again.

damn it.

second time already.

ill go again tho. and I WILL FUCKEN GET IT!!!!!

you'll see.

---

kleek here to watch THE^ video= http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0swksEkPXNw

---

Highschool Graduation 2006.

---

last day of highschool.

hello summer of 2006.



phew...

---

херовойе качество фоток

феноменальныйе спасобнасти маего папы в фотографировании вы можете пасматреть тута =)

---

antlers

assignment: nature-inspired piece.

watercolors, marker.

---

карандаши цветныйе, ручка, маркер.

---

Max Bemix II

he also likes it rough.



print. etching.

---

made an appointment for my moms biopsy today.

july 12th.

wow.. its more than a month away.. this is so bad.

but they didnt have any open spaces between today and that date.

i cannot possibly imagine how many patients they have.

so many sick people...



on monday me and mom went to the cancer institution in new brunswick, while sitting there waiting to see the doctor who does the ultrasound, i looking around me and i got so scared.

there was this girl who was no older than age of 11. she had a tube atached to her chest and looked so sick. i was choking, trying not to start crying. i felt so sorry. she is just a little girl, a child shouldn't have to suffer.

this other guy was so thin, he looked like a skeleton. so pale too, i could almost see through his skin. he had the longest eyelashes ive ever seen and had such beautiful face. his head was shaved. he sat besides a girl. who had his hand around his neck, with her fingers slightly rubbing the back of his neck and head.

i couldnt watch them. it was so heart braking.



this is all so overwhelming.

ive had numerous breakdowns. almost everyday for the past two months.

school is annoying they cant leave us free from work. i have so much stuff to finish in order get to credits for all my classes and graduate. if i wont i just dont know what i will do.

couldnt go to school today. missed 16 days already and im only allowed 20.

i missed prom last friday.. i never wanted to go.. but after last night and the night before i wish i went..

ive been overreacting about stupid things. pissing people off. and taking it all out on everyone who surrounds me.

but i just need some one to hold me and say that everything is going to be okay..

i fucked up a lot.. thought about no one but myself.. and i guess this is a payback..



(c)

---

i broke up with jason on 6/6/6 at 12 a.m.

at 12 a.m. 6/7/6 i apologized and said that i didnt mean it, beacuse i really didnt i was just so furious during the argument and i said the worst i could possibly say.

he said that he didnt want to get back together and needed time to think.

now its 6 a.m. on 6/7/6 i am not going to school because last night i cried so much that now its hard to open my eyes, they are that swolen.

i cant stop crying.

i miss him terribly.

im a stupid bitch some one come and shoot me.

---

http://www.savelivesinmay.com/

---

Max Bemis

---

---

ха! хаха..

---

whore. bitch. asshole.

---

---

запись с 13ого Ноября 2005ого года.

заголовок: I hate drinking.



сама запись: вчера Jay играл концэрт где-то на toms river. после концэрта мы нахрюкались. чуть не кхммм.... у киана в туалете. хахаха..

патом всё было нармально, и в концэ джей апять наврал про всякую чушь, я разазлилась, и мы очень серъёзно паругались..

сегодня праснулась, а у мя дома дахера вина.

ну всё! падумала я тогда, месяц меня сухой не увиит никто=) хаха



вывод: i still hate drinking НО НАПИТЬСЯ АХОООТА!!! прям сейчас=( а вина боkьше нету..